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Thursday, September 30, 2010
Quote Lust
I have to find somewhere to put all the great quotes off twitter that I Love!
-- You can choose to see the beauty or the ugly in people... Whatever you choose to see in them is also inside of u.
--Keep your eye on the prize in moments of disappointment. Its a marathon not a sprint! Push on thru!
--Your plans for yourself are so small compared to the plans the Uni-verse has for you. Surrender to a greater outcome!
--Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment.” ~ Buddha
Running and Veggies
I got in a great run today. A really fantastic, get your blood pumping, sweat dripping feel so good you want to scream run. It felt amazing! I went further than I ever have and when I got home and collapsed on the couch ..I felt completely accomplished. Running is starting to really become a part of my life. I am proud of myself for making it a habit and getting out every morning even though some mornings I don't even feel like it.
Running gives me time to think and time to clear my head. As the blood rushes through me I feel like nothing is impossible and worry leaves my mind. I could almost go twice a day..if I had the time.
I am also loving these STEAMER bags of vegetables. They go great with running because they are low in calories but, high in fiber and very filling. An entire bag in just around 100 calories..top it with salt and Tapatio and you are set! If I continue the running and the eating healthy..I can see myself reaching my goal weight, maybe even faster than I have set the date for!
Running gives me time to think and time to clear my head. As the blood rushes through me I feel like nothing is impossible and worry leaves my mind. I could almost go twice a day..if I had the time.
I am also loving these STEAMER bags of vegetables. They go great with running because they are low in calories but, high in fiber and very filling. An entire bag in just around 100 calories..top it with salt and Tapatio and you are set! If I continue the running and the eating healthy..I can see myself reaching my goal weight, maybe even faster than I have set the date for!
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Compilation of Anchoring/Reporting Clips
I strung together a couple of recent Anchoring/Reporting clips and put them on youtube....What do you think
Live Television
Live Television is almost always Awesome.
I say almost because honestly last nights newscast was one of the highlights of my career (or so she says so sarcastically)
Somehow right after my first block of news, someone over at FOX forgot to press the button that takes us to commercial break (if you work in production please excuse my complete simplifying of the process)
Anyways, imagine this...news is read, tease is read and then you go to commerical. Basic..simple right? Instead viewers got a complete behind the scenes look at what happens between the show. Seth did mic checks, I adjusted my dress, texted on my phone and Pete the cameraman did a cameo trying to roll up wires. We didn't even know what had happened until Seth started receiving a million text messages from viewers commenting on his gorgeous eye color (close up camera shot)!
Mortifying? YES! Now for the good part...things could have been damn near disasterous! Normally during commercial break Seth and I are talking up a storm about everything under the sun. We could have been talking about ANYTHING...Not only that but, I also have been known to drop the occasional swear word during break as well! Lesson learned BIG TIME!
Never just assume you are off air if you are in the newscast..You never ever know what could happen!!!!!
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Digital Camera Blues
Not having a working camera almost feels like I am missing an arm! I bought a nice Sony Cyber shot two years ago and for some reason it's already showing signs of wear and tear. Part of it is my fault..a part of it broke off and left the wiring exposed which means anything could have gotten into it and caused it be to acting so funny. It now takes blurry, fuzzy pictures and is simply not reliable. Boo. Now, I am in the market for another camera and I cannot believe how many choices I have. I want something under 150 dollars, at least 8 megapixels, stylish and small and overall RELIABLE...Any Suggestions?
Running and Pain
I refuse to look at anything anymore as a setback but, this is a minor bump in the road. I may have injured myself during running and have not been able to run for the last two days. I first noticed it yesterday morning. I laced up my shoes, got on my workout gear and headed out the door...a few steps into it however I noticed a very prominent pain in my stomach area just below my belly button.
Figuring it would go away, I just kept going but, found that after a few more steps I couldn't go any further. I managed to walk a couple of blocks but, was pretty disappointed in my inability to run. Today I did the same thing and found the pain to still be present. I'm not quite sure what it could be ..I may have pulled a muscle or simply overexerted myself ...But, it does take away from something I Love to do. I will try again tomorrow and hope the pain will be gone by then. It's strange because it only happens when I run..the rest of the time it's not even noticeable.
Monday, September 27, 2010
A Series of Lessons
If you really think about it life is simply a series of lessons. We learn and grow till we die. Some of us grasp things earlier in life than most..and for others, the learning only comes when we are faced with adversity. Lessons are everywhere and so are signs. You cannot deny a larger power in this earth when you really start to observe and listen to the signs you face. There are no accidents. I am focusing on letting go. It's not easy. In my job and in my life I have always had to have control. Control makes me feel safe, it's predicatable, it means the sun will rise the next day and a certain set of events will unfold that make me feel secure. No more. I am working on letting go. Letting the Universe seal my fate. No I will not completely relinquish control..instead I will ask for what I want..and then TRUST that it will come my way.
Right now in this very moment I could choose to worry and be upset. I really could but, I wont. I will not allow myself to fold or to even worry about a folding occuring. I am strong.
I find strength in so many things. A simple cup of coffee, a friends smile, laughing at work ..joking around with people..they make me realize that no matter what the outcome, life does go on.
Today I sat at a local coffeeshop ..drinking my medium roast Java..sitting outside in the sunshine and watching the cars pass me by. For some reason I had the inclination to look up at the sky. I whispered a wish of intent to the Universe and it hit me how vast the sky really is. Millions of dreams huddle under that vast sky and mine is just one among many. But, I refuse to settle for anything less than happiness and I do firmly believe it's out there.
No I will not crumble.
I am also loving twitter! Every single day I can log on and see inspirational passages from people I admire! How can I not feel blessed. Those words come to me and instantly lift me up and give me perspective.
Here are just a few
-- "A clear vision, backed by definite plans, gives you a tremendous feeling of confidence and personal power." - Brian Tracy
--Holding on to anything is like holding on to your breath. If you don't let go you will start to suffocate
---Put yourself in the hands of the universe--then you will have no need for control.
Fall seven times, stand up eight. ~Japanese Proverb
Signs are everyone...do not ignore them. Pay attention to the signs in your life and the people who love you. Those are my thoughts for today.
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
A Little Better Each Day
Am I a runner yet? Probably not but, wow am I getting there. I am starting to feel that guilt settle in if I don't go for my run every morning. Granted I am still only going about a mile per day and it's not running the whole time but, I can tell from the way my legs feel afterwards that I got a workout in. I try to push myself a little further each day. Today I ran further than yesterday and everyday I add a few more steps. My breathing seems to be getting easier too. I don't huff and puff as much anymore and I never have to use my inhaler. I used to kinda roll my eyes at runners before (um are they just showing off or what) but, I am starting to get it. Running is actually a lot of fun IF you stick with it. I read a statistic that 80% of runners quit before 4 weeks are up..and that is JUST when they are getting good at it. I will not let myself quit. I have gone this far and I am going to keep on going!
Friday, September 17, 2010
Perspective...Pass it on
I am surrounding myself with inspiration. And it seems that ever since I decided I wanted more in my life, it comes to me. Just today, the 11pm producer sent me a link on youtube to listen to the amazing "Last Lecture" by Randy Pausch. He was a professor at Carnegie Mellon University and also an amazing speaker. He speaks with humor about the fact that he has mere months to live. His attitude is unbelievable. How do people when faced with the greatest of hardships manage to see the light? What amazing strength of spirit. And yet I sit here and find hardships in my day to day life. I sit here and say, "I cannot overcome this" and it's something so minor.
Randy holds up a picture of his family in one of his very last speeches and introduces his children one by one. They are all under the age of 5. Then he introduces his wife and he says with humor and a smile, "Here is my widow"...and he literally beams with the assurance that everything is going to be okay.
I admire him for his courage. Perpective...pass it on.
I am also reading a book called, "Heart Broken Open" It's a memoir by Kristine Carlson. She is the widow of the late Richard Carlson who wrote the book "Don't Sweat The Small Stuff" It is her journey of grief. Her journey from learning of her husbands death to telling her two teenage daughters to going through the gut-wrenching grief process to finally accepting and embracing the pain that comes with loss.
These are all stories of such courage. How will you handle what comes your way? What legacy will you leave on this earth? Think about it.
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
The Joys of Food
Why oh why oh why does food have to taste so damn good? Honestly if we could get all of our nutritional needs met by taking one pill a day and never have to worry about the choices and the preparation and the guilt and pure pleasure of food ..Life would be a far simpler place.
Simpler? Of course but, satisfying probably not.
Compared to most people I do not eat very much ..At least not during the week. My meals usually consist of the following Monday through Friday
AM water after my run and coffee with cream around 11 or so.
2:15PM Arrive at work
2:30PM stomach starts grumbling and I start obsessing over what to eat.
3:00PM Afternoon meeting, reporter and other producer discussing ideas. Me, thinking about food and wondering if my food drawer contains anything exciting
3:30PM Heating up a can of soup in employee break room. I literally live on cans of soup during the week. They are quick and easy and normally quite filling. My favorite these days are the Select Harvest soups by Campbells. The Tomato Bisque is to die for especially when you add a generous helping of Tapatio (and I mean a generous, generous helping)
4:30PM Looking around for other bites to snack on. Usually end up eating more than my fair share of croutons, which means almost the entire bag if I am not careful
4:35PM Realize I have almost finished the bag. Quickly put it away and look around nervously to make sure nobody else saw me scarfing down in quick succession.
6:30 Record FOX promos
6:45PM Finally time for my one major main meal of the day! This usually consists of a bag of salad that I purchased that morning, a bottle of low calorie salad dressing and the rest of the croutons from the bag. I pair it with green tea and am one happy camper.
I am usually good then till the newscast with a couple more cups of green tea to get me through but, it's the AFTER the news that gets me every single time. I am always starving by the time I am driving home. Granted it's because I haven't eaten for about 4 hours and it's natural that I would be hungry. It doesn't help that the ever so tempting burrito filled taco heaven of a place known as Taco Bell is directly on my way home!
Oh God.
I admit I will stop there 1 or 2 times a week and get something for late night munchies. I know your not supposed to eat that late but, sometimes you just cannot help it!
It may not seem like it but, I more than make up for it over the weekend. What can i say I like to eat! And a lot of the time it's fast food or grilling steaks or making pasta at home. Food is such a big part of our lives and such a big part of every single culture. Can you imagine being without it.
I remember when I was on the water fast for 5 days and how strange it felt to not be eating. It wasn't even that I felt that hungry it was more that I had no idea how to pass my time. Most of us look forward to our next meal or grabbing coffee or making that sandwich but, when that was taken away from me I had to find other ways to pass that time.
What is your favorite thing to eat? What would be hardest food to live without?
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Another Day on the Job
What a busy day! I cannot believe today is only Tuesday. It certainly already feels like it should be Friday..this week is a-draggin.
Today I am producing the KVAL 11PM newscast because the anchor called in sick. A co-worker of mine who usually reports during the week is anchoring my show. It's always a little strange to produce and anchor a show you are not used to but I must admit I am proud of myself. I got the show done in less than 2 hours and can now just focus on fine tuning it! :) I think I have a very Type A personality when it comes to timing. I have to do things in a certain order and in a certain way. I like to have my show done at a specific time and at 8:30PM sharp everynight I go and do my makeup. :)
We use a software here called ENPS. It's basically a systematic way to produce our newscasts. People are usually so shocked by how precise and exact our timing has to be. If we are even ten seconds off it can really throw a newscast. Back to producing the 11.! Watch tonight if you can :)
Monday, September 13, 2010
Eid 2010
Eid has come and gone and again I am amazed by how quickly this year is flying by. Just last week I was feeling a little upset that I wouldn't have anywhere to go on Eid and quite the opposite turned out to be true. I had a wonderful day full of friendship and love.
The day started out with the Eid prayer at the Abu Bakr Al Siddiq Mosque here in Eugene. It's basically a converted house with seperate sections for men and women. As soon as I walked in I saw several people who I had not seen in a long time as well as some new faces. We all lined up in rows for the Namaaz. After the Eid Namaaz is a special Takbeer which is basically a recitation of parts of the Quran along with a speech on Eid. It was so hard to hear what the Imam was saying because the speaker in the womens section was spotty and so everything came out cackly and convuluted :)
After the Takbeer loads of food was brought into the womens section. Everything from baklava to delicious pastries and coffee. After all people have been fasting for 30 days and this celebration is all about the FOOD!
Everyone ate and socialized and laughed. It really was heartwarming to be around fellow Muslims and take part in such a joy-filled occasion.
A friend of mine, Alia and I decided to meet for lunch in a couple of hours at the local Chilis restaurant so I went home and changed and met her and some other friends for lunch. I really was feeling on top of the world surrounded by good friends and having the day off to boot! I also talked with my family back in Minnesota as they were enjoying Eid as well. The Muslim population in Minnesota is huge and they were having a blast with friends that they have known for years.
After lunch it was off to the grocery store to load up on items for a special dinner I was making. With red potatoes, beef tips, yogurt, and spices you can make an INCREDIBLE curry dish called Aloo Goshth.
I got all the stuff and came home and started cooking. I could literally spend hours listening to music and cooking something delicious and cleaning house. Something is just so relaxing about it!
I also made some Saffron rice with vegetables to go with the dish. It all turned out delicious!
Though I didn't expect to get anything for Eid I got some wonderfully sweet presents from Trinidad! I was touched beyond belief that he thought about me on my special day. I feel blessed. Overall, Eid this year was beyond my expectations.
Friday, September 10, 2010
Coincidence or Something Much Much More?
I am learning. I am learning a lot. People talk about awakenings all the time. They talk a lot about that one moment that defines everything. No, I have not reached that moment. There has been no lightbulb that went off, no instant realization that everything suddenly makes sense. No...it's nothing like that. But something has changed. I suddenly understand the power that is within me.
I may have looked at someone in my shoes a couple of years ago and thought they were hokey or that they were too "out there" for me. It's really nothing major. I just have some new hope in my heart. I am starting to understand how much we create our own reality. And it's really like the world is responding to my new understanding. Just in the last couple of days some minor things have happened that in the past I would have never even given a second thought to, now they seem to reinforce my new belief in things. Today while I was sitting with friends having lunch I instantly thought about an old friend of mine and for some reason I remembered a particular shirt that she would wear. It was blue with white stripes, nothing too unusual but lo and behold as soon as I had the thought if not mere moments later, I look up and see our waitress wearing the exact same shirt.
Coincidence? maybe.
But what about the television program I was watching today about Lottery winners. I suddenly thought to myself, "wow if someone was single and they won the lottery it would be so hard to figure out if someone wanted me for my money or not." I went on to think "If I was in that situation I would not tell anyone that I had so much money in the bank and only tell them after they proved they loved me for me..and not my money"...the very next story was about just that. A lottery winner who chose not to tell his significant other that he had so much money in the bank.
Coincidence? Maybe.
But what about yesterday when I knew for a fact that the words out of a producer at works mouth were going to surely without question be the words "Islamic Conspiracy"?
These things happen all the time. Songs on the radio....a friend who you have not spoken to in ages who calls you on the phone..out of the blue.
How do YOU explain them.
I used to explain them as coincidence. Now...I'm not so sure.
Now I think it's all the reality that we create. Every single thought has a wavelength..has energy...sends out a signal to the Universe...
Just imagine what you can create..if you really learn to channel your thoughts into what you really really want out of life.
Just imagine.
Just imagine.
Thursday, September 9, 2010
Ask. Believe. Receive
This morning was a very spiritual one for me. For the past week or so for those of you who have been following my journey, I have been attempting to apply the "Law of Attraction" to my life.
It is not an easy process. It is a complete shifting of the way I have always thought and I find myself sometimes slipping back into negative thought patterns and worrying about things that are completely out of my hands. It is not easy and yet it is easy. When you have a negative thought acknowledge it and then switch your positive button on. You have a choice. I am learning this slowly. But, it is not just your thoughts. You cannot just think positive and expect the "Law of Attraction" to work for you. You must also feel it. Feel how you would feel if you already had what you wanted.
I needed a boost this morning so I popped in the DVD of "The Secret". While the movie just touches the surface of the law it was enough to jumpstart my feelings of positivity. I also lit a candle and for a couple of minutes closed my eyes and visualized what I wanted. I imagined myself feeling like I already had what it is that I desire. Lets see what it brings about. I am going to do this daily. Wish me Luck. (Oh but, wait I do not need it because I firmly believe these things will happen in my life)
REMEMBER Ask, Believe, Recieve
We can do this by first and foremost being GRATEFUL for what we already have. This will shift your focus to a focus of happiness almost instantly
What are you grateful for? Here is my list.
For the most amazing family that loves me and would do anthing for me
A job that really is something i strived for for so many years and I finally reached my goal
Food anytime I want it and not having to want for anything
Health
I have hardly any health problems and I am so lucky
I have many amazing and wonderful friends who love and support me. Thank you God for these people
I have eyes to read and hands to do things with. How many people do not?
I have amazing LOVE In my life from someone special to me.
Write down your list of what you are GRATEFUL for. I guarantee it will change your perspective.
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
One day of Peace ...The Next of Hatred
It's a big day this week! Eid Ul Fitr is this Friday! For those of you who do not know what Eid is..
EID is a Muslim holiday that marks the end of Ramadan, the Islamic holy month of fasting (sawm). Eid is an Arabic word meaning "festivity", while Fiá¹r means "to purify"; and so the holiday symbolizes the purification after completing the fasting month which is after the end of the Islamic month of Ramadan, on the first day of Shawwal.
For the first time in my life I will be celebrating Eid alone this year. I don't really have anyone here in Eugene to spend it with..but, I am not upset about it at all. I may go to the local Mosque for the Eid prayer and then spend the day happy and content. It really is about your relationship with God instead of people. I have some reflecting to do and some things to think about. No I am not upset. I feel fulfilled.
That day will be a good day. The next day, thousands of miles away in the town of Gainesville, Florida, one pastor will command his people to grab our holy book and light it on fire. He will set ablaze the words brought down to the Prophet Mohammad (PBUH) in the cave of Hira.
The Koran (also spelled Qur'an), the holy book of the Islamic religion, was written by followers of the prophet Muhammad (c. 570–632). From 610 until his death, Muhammad received visions from Allah (God). Muhammad's followers recorded these visions in what is now the Koran. Although parts of the 114 chapters of the Koran were recorded during his lifetime, the final version was compiled after his death. Muslims (the term for members of the Islamic religion) believe that the Koran is only a copy of an eternal book that is kept by Allah in heaven as his complete message to humankind. Half poetry and half prose, the Koran has a powerful effect on listeners when read aloud. Nonbelievers often demanded that Muhammad perform miracles, but he explained that he was an ordinary man—not God. According to Muhammad, the Koran was a miracle because of its perfect use of the Arabic language.
It's a book that has ispired millions. A book where Allah condemns the cutting down of trees during war. Where woman were given property rights before any other religion...where giving a dog a little bit of water will earn you the right to Heaven...
The "root" of the word "Islam" in Arabic is SALAMA which is the origin of the words Peace & / or Submission, a submission to God and peace to all humanity. It is, thus, no wonder why the salutation in Islam is: "Al-Salamu Alaikum or Peace on You."
But on that day, Peace will be set ablaze as millions around the world watch. Feelings will be deeply hurt, violence will careen through the streets of Pakistan, Iraq and Afghanistan perhaps even the United States. Hatred will sweep over countries, societys and everyone will react differently.
I will spend Friday in peace and pray and pray and pray for what happens the day after.
Inshallah.
Monday, September 6, 2010
What would Anne Frank say about anti-Muslim rhetoric?
I am re-printing this article because it struck a chord with me. Until now anger has been my primary emotion when I think of how stuck some people are in beliefs. About how some people can take the actions of a few and lump an entire religion into a category. My new emotion is fear. A slippery slope of hatred that is gaining momentum. What can we do to stop it? What can any Muslim do? I try to do my part to educate. I try my best to clear misconceptions. Will it ever be enough? When I was a teen I was facinated by the Holocaust. I read every single book on the subject. I read "The Diary of Anne Frank" over and over again. I read "Night" by Elie Wiesel and cried at the cruelty we inflict on each other. I couldn't imagine how the hatred in one persons heart was enough to infect an entire nation. Small minded people who needed something to believe in began to see the Jews as a real enemy. Young innnocent children, defenseless women, it did not matter. I am not even as devout a Muslim as I wish I could be but, the magnitude of this hatred is out of control. What can Muslims do to stop the spread of hate before it takes over?
Article reprinted below
Anya Cordell , the recipient of the 2010 Spirit of Anne Frank Award, imagines what Anne Frank would say to the growing anti-Muslim sentiments in the U.S.
THEN WHAT? The Consequences of Lighting the Anti-Muslim Fuse
“How soon do we expect that Muslim children should renounce or denounce their parents,
and how are they to arrive at the supposed wisdom of this renunciation?”
“If I were Muslim, I’d kill myself.” No, that’s not what was said. It was: “If I looked like him, I’d kill myself.”
The speaker was my favorite uncle, commenting on an overweight man, across a hotel pool. Considering how much self-talk I had engaged in to convince myself to be seen in a swimsuit, visiting my California relatives, I absorbed this pronouncement in shame and silence, trying desperately to hold onto shreds of self-worth.
This statement by a member of my fashion and beauty obsessed family epitomizes why I’ve devoted myself to efforts against what I call “appearance-ism”, or appearance-based judgments of ourselves and others. On some level, I actually feel that my life is at stake, at least a life with any sense of worth and joy, in the ‘imperfect’ body I have. I’ve also come to discover that appearance-ism is a universal experience, that even great beauties are objectified in our culture, that almost everyone can relate in some way to the injustice of judgments based on appearance and thereby come to deeper understanding regarding other forms of bias.
So that became my mission; to teach what I most need to learn. But it’s taking me a long while, and I’m not done yet.
The man at the pool could have been a brilliant cancer-curing scientist but apparently that didn’t matter in light of his fatal flaw. Although the man and I could have fixed ourselves up a bit with diet, exercise, spray-on tans, maybe even liposuction, I often think of all the ways in which we humans are, AS IS; the size, shape, color, configuration and ethnicity we naturally are, with which we need to make peace in order to walk in the world, not feeling we’d be better off hidden or even dead.
Babies are born into families, with genetics, histories, heritage and often, religion, and they haven’t much choice about what to do about any, or all, of that for a very long time, if ever. Is it a crime to be born into a particular culture or religion? Is it currently a crime to be born a Roma? (Apparently, it may be.) Was it a capital offense to be born a Jew, at the time of the Holocaust? In essence, it was. And is it now, absurdly, the fault of every child born to a Muslim family to have the audacity to be what they simply are? How soon do we expect they should renounce or denounce their parents, and how are they to arrive at the supposed wisdom of this renunciation?
The pronouncements about “all Muslims”, flying fast and loose these days, seem to hold some hope that Muslims disappear by some magical device that would be a really good idea, if only it were real. Or maybe, unlike leopards, they could change their spots, just stop being Muslim. I heard a renowned “expert” on Muslim affairs say that getting rid of all Muslims wasn’t “practical”, while he inferred it was desirable.
There are those who assert that all 1.5 billion Muslims are more concerned with hating, converting and destroying others on a daily basis than with simply living, eating, supporting their families, and doing what most everyone on Earth does. If that were true, wouldn’t they be achieving vast amounts of destruction in communities worldwide? Instead, the very people who characterize Muslims as being hateful and bent on world domination are themselves the most hateful and bent on converting all Muslims (if they won’t just do themselves in, as my uncle thought the man at the pool ought to do, sparing us the unpleasantness of having him in our sightlines).
When I hear the presumptions about all Muslims these days, I, a Jewish woman, silently substitute “all Jews” and then I know how terrifying and incendiary this language is, because we’ve already seen how these scenes play out, in all too horrific reality. Will those who are screaming the stereotypes the loudest take responsibility when people accept their cues and assume they have license from society to target innocent Muslims in hate-crimes, or worse?
I’d like to ask the Muslim-bashers, “Then what?” after every pronouncement, and push them to follow their vision further down the path. After our culture makes it clear that we abhor all Muslims, and we abhor everything we believe that they believe, then what? After we’ve made it clear that all who are born Muslim, that all who call themselves Muslim, (we don’t bother to ask them what this means to them), are unwelcome in our midst, then what? After we’ve made it clear that unless they cease to be themselves, we’re not sure they deserve to be, at all, then what?
Just as my uncle wanted the man to disappear (or destroy himself—but out of our vision, so as not to ruin our vacation day), many apparently wish that Muslims would disintegrate into thin air. But this is not going to happen, so, then what? And after Muslims worldwide have absorbed progressive shock waves of all the hatred and condemnation, and after some of them internalize the trauma and respond, then what? What do we imagine happens next when people are treated as Muslims are, currently?
We are on a precipice, looking over the edge. Humans have stood on this precipice before. We know about the times when people were willing to—or were manipulated to—push others, many others, over the edge.
The perpetrators of 9/11 were at this precipice, and they were willing to generalize that their victims and the daily lives of those victims’ loved ones were worth sacrificing for some bigger vision. They didn’t care to know the particulars of the individuals they destroyed, even the Muslims, they destroyed. They couldn’t be bothered with facts. Whether their targets were brilliant doctors, scientists, artists, or extraordinarily kind individuals was of no consequence. They didn’t have the willingness to be patient, thoughtful and careful of the consequences of their actions. They felt some crisis or critical condition required them to act immediately and unquestioningly. How then, does frantic and careless generalizing and stereotyping in any way contradict the tremendous and horrific suffering which nineteen perpetrators, and those manipulating them, engendered?
Some white guys have committed extraordinary destruction; guys like hooded Klansmen, or Jim Jones, or Timothy McVeigh. Guys like Benjamin Smith, the white supremacist who killed my black neighbor in 1999, or Frank Roque who murdered an innocent Sikh man on September 15, 2001, simply because he wore a turban and Roque was out to “kill the ragheads”, or Mark Stroman who murdered two innocent men, one Muslim and one Hindu and blinded a third man, after 9/11, claiming he was a patriot, doing what others wished they could do, if only they had his “nerve”.
I know the families of five of these victims. I know where their “ground zeros” are, and how the exigencies of daily public life have reclaimed the locales where these family’s lives shattered into pieces. No memorials set them apart as hallowed sanctuaries. In innumerable “ground zeros”, the world over, families have clawed at earth with bare hands, desperate to rescue or recover their loved ones, but these families don’t ask for anything other than the hope of putting one foot in front of the other and moving sadly forward from unspeakable tragedy.
In response to the acts of terrorism committed by the white guys mentioned above, there are not wholesale smears of white guys. That would be absurd, because we know that white guys are individuals, no two are alike. But isn’t religion a common, shared belief in basic tenets? Well, judging from the disagreements and controversies that are rife in every family, organization and religion—sects within sects, differences of interpretation, ritual and practice—how can we possibly ascribe unanimity of belief to fully a fifth of the world’s population? Do we insist that all Jews and Christians are in complete accord with every line of the Old and New Testaments, with no variables in interpretation, as the Koran is now selectively quoted as supposed proof of every Muslim’s flawed makeup?
If this mass of people refuses to disappear off the face of the Earth to accommodate non-Muslims, then what? What do we really want of Muslims? All the Muslims I know grieve September 11 rather than celebrate it, which they’ve been accused of doing. Additionally, they feel constant suspicion directed at them as they try to live their lives while absorbing the shame and blame now heaped upon all Muslims, worldwide. They are between a rock and a hard place, damned for whatever they do or don’t do. And they are afraid. Following a school presentation, a student whispered to me, “Thank you so much for your program. I’m Muslim, but no one here knows it.” Chilling.
Since 9/11, the anti-Muslim drumbeat has impacted vast numbers of innocent Muslims, Sikhs, Hindus, Arabs, South Asians and others. We, who despair when our children are teased and bullied, are accepting and repeating despicable slurs about others, ricocheting through our culture. I felt compelled to stand up against people being attacked, even murdered on the basis of snap judgments. I felt compelled to reach out to the families of people I didn’t know, across the country, and to speak about their losses. For these efforts and for my work against appearance-ism and the designating of any group as “Other”, I received the 2010 Spirit of Anne Frank Outstanding Citizen Award from The Anne Frank Center USA
Whatever one feels about the placement of the Islamic Center in lower Manhattan, why, I want to ask, is there almost no outcry about those who are reaping money, power, prestige or votes via the incendiary vitriol with which they are soaking the culture like gasoline only requiring a single match to become a conflagration?
I believe I know what Anne Frank would tell us, if she could, about the smears, stereotypes and generalizations now being shouted so incessantly, and about the times when people have had to try to “pass” or hide, to be safe. I believe she would say that just because many people scream something does not make it true. I believe she would point out the tremendous disparity between the Nazi stereotypes of Jews, and the real Jews, like her, who were destroyed by such propaganda, and the practices and policies that flowed from it.
I believe she would remind us of what happens when generalizations are carried to their conclusions and when it seems politically impossible to speak out against those who are shouting the loudest. I believe she would take note of leaders backing down from principles, each one cuing the next that this temerity is in accord with the tenor of the time. I believe she would grieve that Jewish organizations are not speaking out against the dangerous climate, and instead are participating in it.
I believe she would beg us to be allies for those who are not our ethnicity, our religion, our ‘tribe’—as the non-Jewish friends who supported her family in hiding took extraordinary risks to be her ally. I believe she would exhort people who have never even met a Muslim not to accept wholesale characterizations, and to befriend Muslims.
I believe she would warn us of a very slippery, very dangerous slope, and she would remind us what happens next, and next, and next, as the progression unfolds incrementally but inexorably—the progression that starts with offhand remarks, then slurs, then stereotypes, then diatribes, then what? We ought to have a clear idea of such a progression by now, hopefully not one we’ll only grasp later from a left-behind diary of a Muslim adolescent, who simply desired to walk in the world safely and openly.
"Choose Them Wisely" by Mike Dooley
I am reading a facinating book right now. It's called "Choose them Wisely" by Mike Dooley. I found it in my favorite section of the downtown Eugene public library yesterday.
It follows the same concept I have been facinated with lately, The Law of Attraction. So many of the passages are so uplifting and inspiring that I want to capture them in my mind and read them when I find myself resorting to negative thoughts. Here is just one example.
From---"Thoughts Become Things" By Mike Dooley 2009
It's Me! Life!
Thoughts are the things that draw life to you
Like a magnet to steel
they're how dreams come true,
It's really that easy
and a whole lot of fun.
just know what you want
and imagine it done.
Sure, the manifestation part is easy. You already do it, day in and day out. Your dreams have come true. You're living them right now! The heroes and heroines in your life--they're pretty much what you thought you would find right? And the hills and valleys, the challenges and triumphs are just like you pictured them. You've got the right stuff and you are using it! The tricky part, and this isn't always so obvious, is knowing what you really want. Tricky because it requires brutal honesty with yourself. It requires asking questions that ordinarily you wouldn't have to ask, looking at the facts you've made up rethinking what they're provoking, and understanding your fears and your true motivations. No, of course you don't have to go there. Almost no one does. You can fool most of the people most of the time, and no one's going to come tap you on the shoulder to tell you that you have been kidding yourself. Accept the life you lead. Question yourself and think deep.
Friday, September 3, 2010
Running, Stage 1
Running. Oh how I Love and Hate it.
But lately that hate is turning far more into love than anything. It's been about a week of me deciding each and every morning that I am going to get my butt up and lace up those running shoes and just DO IT.
I wouldn't call myself an experienced runner yet but, I am at the point where I am starting to enjoy it. I may not enjoy the actual time when I am running but, it is all worth it for that time when I come back, completely wiped out, sweat trickling down my brow and the surge of seratonin running through my veins!
My runs usually consist of the trails along Autzen Stadium. It's just across the street and I can head right out my front door and head that way. It's also pretty populated during the day so I never feel scared or uncomfortable out there. I see a lot of people running while I am out which helps motivate me too. One day I hope to run a marathon. Right now I have to focus on even completing a mile without stopping but, it's certainly a start! My legs are aching today but, it's such a good feeling. I am lucky because I have a great pair of running shoes and plenty of workout gear courtesy of someone very special in my life so I didn't need to buy anything to get started.
When I read articles in "Runners" magazine I am so amazed at people who get up at 5am and go running for 10-15 miles! That is crazy to me but, who knows one day I might be one of those people. I can see already how it can be addicting and it tones up your entire body.! Cheers to Running !
Thursday, September 2, 2010
Happy for No Reason
Why is today different than any other day? Well it is not. I still woke up as usual, went through my normal routine and nothing in particular happened out of the ordinary.
I went for a long run near Autzen Stadium and marveled at how beautiful a day it was. Several folks were out and about getting the tailgaiting area ready for Saturday's Big Duck game and I ran past enjoying the views and trying very hard to focus on my breathing which was getting shallower as I went along. I am not yet what I would call a "runner" but, I am going to get there if it kills me. I will do it and I know I can do it.
So back to what was different today. Nothing a normal person would notice but, something was. Something huge.
I chose to be happy for no reason at all.
That statement may not seem like anything much but, oh it is. Ever since meeting inspirational life coach Maria Lesetz and reading more and more about the Law of Attraction, I am becoming more in tune with my thoughts every single day. Let me tell you it's far harder than you would think. I have so many negative thoughts in one day that need to be changed and re-purposed but, I think I am making progress...
Case in point, something happened this morning which normally would have made me very upset. I don't need to get into the actual event but, it was something that gnawed away at me for a bit turning into a bigger and bigger demon that became too frustrating and depressing for me to control. The old thought process would have ruined my day but, I chose to take a deep breath and decide that I can only control my own emotions. I cannot control someone else's. I also cannot make a person act a certain way or hope that they will respond in a way that I would want. What I can do is focus on what is good and focus on my goals and dreams and things I appreciate in life. Life throws some bad bad things your way sometimes but, if we can learn to change our thinking about them think about how much more fulfilling life will be?
As I say this I recognize that it is very very hard and I have a ways to go. I am only at the tip of the iceberg with it but, I know that eventually I can control my life by controlling my thoughts. Then again nothing that challenging has happened to me since I came across this concept..I suppose that would be the true test to see if I can implement changing my thought patterns. But, I am excited to see where this leads :)
I went for a long run near Autzen Stadium and marveled at how beautiful a day it was. Several folks were out and about getting the tailgaiting area ready for Saturday's Big Duck game and I ran past enjoying the views and trying very hard to focus on my breathing which was getting shallower as I went along. I am not yet what I would call a "runner" but, I am going to get there if it kills me. I will do it and I know I can do it.
So back to what was different today. Nothing a normal person would notice but, something was. Something huge.
I chose to be happy for no reason at all.
That statement may not seem like anything much but, oh it is. Ever since meeting inspirational life coach Maria Lesetz and reading more and more about the Law of Attraction, I am becoming more in tune with my thoughts every single day. Let me tell you it's far harder than you would think. I have so many negative thoughts in one day that need to be changed and re-purposed but, I think I am making progress...
Case in point, something happened this morning which normally would have made me very upset. I don't need to get into the actual event but, it was something that gnawed away at me for a bit turning into a bigger and bigger demon that became too frustrating and depressing for me to control. The old thought process would have ruined my day but, I chose to take a deep breath and decide that I can only control my own emotions. I cannot control someone else's. I also cannot make a person act a certain way or hope that they will respond in a way that I would want. What I can do is focus on what is good and focus on my goals and dreams and things I appreciate in life. Life throws some bad bad things your way sometimes but, if we can learn to change our thinking about them think about how much more fulfilling life will be?
As I say this I recognize that it is very very hard and I have a ways to go. I am only at the tip of the iceberg with it but, I know that eventually I can control my life by controlling my thoughts. Then again nothing that challenging has happened to me since I came across this concept..I suppose that would be the true test to see if I can implement changing my thought patterns. But, I am excited to see where this leads :)
Attacked By Acid and Still So Strong
I am always amazed by acts of courage. By people who stay strong when life throws them in the worst possible situations. Such as this woman:
PORTLAND, Ore. — Bethany Storro had just bought a pair of sunglasses and was celebrating a new job when a woman walked up to her with a cup and said: "Hey pretty girl, do you want to drink this?"
The woman then splashed acid in the cup on Storro, who stumbled in pain and fell to the ground screaming. She felt agonizing pain as the skin on her face bubbled and sizzled and portions of her blouse disintegrated.
"It was the most painful thing ever," Storro, 28, said Thursday. "My heart stopped. It ripped through my clothing the instant it touched my shirt; I could feel it burning through my second layer of skin."
Police are seeking the woman in the Monday attack as Storro, with her head wrapped in white bandages, recounted Thursday how only days before, she had been celebrating a new job and a recent move to Vancouver, Wash., from Idaho.
But she insisted that she would not let the attack in Vancouver wreck her life, and laughingly marveled how her eyesight was spared just minutes after she bought those sunglasses.
Storro said she had spinal meningitis twice as a child, which robbed her of most of her hearing.
"Oh my gosh, to be hard of hearing and blind? That would drive them nuts," she said, laughing and pointing at her parents, Joe and Nancy Neuwelt. "They have to be in the same room for me to hear them. I'm just so glad it's a miracle."
Though her face may be scarred forever she is keeping up a positive attitude and trying her best to stay strong. What makes one person be so optomistic when another would simply give up? I admire her courage and her determination that this attack will not ruin her life. I also wonder how low a person can go to feel that they need to disfigure another. In a way it's worse than any other attack. You can stab someone and they can recover...or you can hit someone and they will recover..but, when you throw acid on someone is comes from such a deep level of hate that it's downright scary. One woman is in the depths of her dispair so much that she needs to maim another while the woman she maims ends up having hope and positivity in her heart.
PORTLAND, Ore. — Bethany Storro had just bought a pair of sunglasses and was celebrating a new job when a woman walked up to her with a cup and said: "Hey pretty girl, do you want to drink this?"
The woman then splashed acid in the cup on Storro, who stumbled in pain and fell to the ground screaming. She felt agonizing pain as the skin on her face bubbled and sizzled and portions of her blouse disintegrated.
"It was the most painful thing ever," Storro, 28, said Thursday. "My heart stopped. It ripped through my clothing the instant it touched my shirt; I could feel it burning through my second layer of skin."
Police are seeking the woman in the Monday attack as Storro, with her head wrapped in white bandages, recounted Thursday how only days before, she had been celebrating a new job and a recent move to Vancouver, Wash., from Idaho.
But she insisted that she would not let the attack in Vancouver wreck her life, and laughingly marveled how her eyesight was spared just minutes after she bought those sunglasses.
Storro said she had spinal meningitis twice as a child, which robbed her of most of her hearing.
"Oh my gosh, to be hard of hearing and blind? That would drive them nuts," she said, laughing and pointing at her parents, Joe and Nancy Neuwelt. "They have to be in the same room for me to hear them. I'm just so glad it's a miracle."
Though her face may be scarred forever she is keeping up a positive attitude and trying her best to stay strong. What makes one person be so optomistic when another would simply give up? I admire her courage and her determination that this attack will not ruin her life. I also wonder how low a person can go to feel that they need to disfigure another. In a way it's worse than any other attack. You can stab someone and they can recover...or you can hit someone and they will recover..but, when you throw acid on someone is comes from such a deep level of hate that it's downright scary. One woman is in the depths of her dispair so much that she needs to maim another while the woman she maims ends up having hope and positivity in her heart.
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
Side Gig
I have been thinking a lot lately about a side business of some sort. I think it would be a fun way to earn some extra money while also doing something fun. I have several ideas but, they are present certain challenges.
1. Ebay Business --sounds fun but, there are a MILLION ebay businesses out there. How do people make them work? What sets one apart from the other? What items really sell and what ones are a dime a dozen. Plus you have to list several items and many times the item closes without a single bid.
2. Writing--if I could write for a living I think I would be set. Several magazines look for freelance writers. This would be a good way to hone in on my love for writing while also earning some extra money. I wonder how long the articles have to be?
3. Coaching--After meeting an inspirational life coach the other day I am very very interested in taking the classes and starting something of my own. I did some research and while the classes are pricey they are also fun! And this would be a great way to help others while also learning about new things myself.
Thoughts?
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